[Madmiles442]

DD,
Sounds like you're in a low place and need a little self-care. Sure you give love, time and effort to your son and family but during these times it's important to give yourself some love too. Do something that makes YOU feel good. That's not being selfish, just taking care of the needs you have while you tend to others.
Try and pick out one thing you're going to do each day for the next week that's just for YOU. And relish that time, soak it in, don't feel guilty about it.
You're a great father, a good husband and your family will be strong through this time and live to enjoy lots of days in the finished ERA!